okay.. ytd reach home but never blog.. ha.. its not i dun have time.. but is jus dunno wad to write.. now is the second week of my attachment and tml is fri!! thats means weekend is coming liao.. hahas.. but sat still got work la..
i realise that u cant force urself to do something.. especially is comes to relationship. if the person doesnt love u anymore, u also cant force the person to come back to you. for me is im trying to force myself dun think anymore. but it is said easier than done. the more i ask myself not to think, the more im thinking. which i think i will let nature take it course. maybe as time goes by, it will fade off.
i have to make all the facts right. he's not coming back anymore. i've lost all the rights to concern about him. im nobody to him anymore. thats wad i have to make myself understand.
frankly speaking, i will still think of the time we spent together. and i dun deny. if he really past through my mind once in a while, i dun deny. even we are not tgh anymore, but memories are always there. it might fade as time goes by and disappear, but i will not deny that it once exist.
jus now went for lunch with the ppl there, then i brought back a cup of grass jelly drink. at first i didnt really think of anything. but when i finishing the drink, i suddenly thot of him. it is jus very weird. it jus suddenly strike through my mind and memories came back at the second. i remember that he likes that drink and he always bring mi to the stall near paradiz and acc him drink. i always reject his offer but i dunno why. its not that i dun like to drink or wad, but the few times he bring me over there, he will ask me if i wan anything and i will confirm shake my head. im weird. dunno wad im thinking at that time. okay, it might be no point thinking of wad im thinking at that time already. cos he will never bring me there anymore. not anymore.
i blog, i tok about things btw us, not because it will change anything. its jus a way that i can express myself.
xueying is weird.
