Sunday, April 30, 2006
i've been wondering
if the clock could turn back, will i do a different thing?
if the clock could turn back, will everything be the same as now?
am i consider too stubborn?
i often think, it is not my fault.. but is it true?
i've been lying to myself all the time..
i always thought that if i dun care abt it, it will be alright..
but in the end, i am the one who is suffering from it...
others are jus as happy as before.
whereas i am the only one who still stay in the past.
when can i cross the barrier
and get these thing out of my head??
i wun be able to forgive myself from making those decision..
NEVER. . . .i really hav no mood to do anything..
no mood to draw
i hav to get back to myself before i can carry on doing anythings...i hav realised.everything is my faultis all my faultim the one who missed iti've no right to blame anyonesoit is my FAULT.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
i have no energy to do anything.. especially projects.. i also wish that i can hav full concentration in my work.. but is damn hard!!! why?? i also dun understand.. my life is getting very worse.. i really want to get out of this suituation..
i really wish that you will care more abt mi..
i've been findin more and more difficult to tok to you le..
and u always didnt kept your promises. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
haiz.. another week has past.. still the same old thing.. got a bit different.. or better? but i still feel is not the same anymore..
i hav been wondering.. did i enter the right course?
of course, after one year le then think of this question sound quite strange la.. but i jus feel it that way.. haiz
been busy with projects all these days.. but i still able to think of that! haiz.. should keep myself more and more and more busy to stop my mind from wondering.. if not i think i will hav another breakdown sooner or later...
i really dun like this kind of life.. am i able to stop it or change it? but i think i wun be able to do so.. i dun hav this ability! haiz..
all the projects are giving me different types of problem..
studio project- i cant even decide on a theme to work on.. scare i didnt chose a good theme.. but i cant continue wasting time on it.. haiz..
VI- hav been running out of ideas already.. will i able to think of more ideas?
illustrator- not doing very well also..
3D modeling- haiz.. cant really catch wad the teacher teach..
advertising and packaging- no idea of wad shld i do.
and more.. haiz..
i hav already so many problems.. consider problematic..
Sunday, April 23, 2006
hmmm... after tomolo.. i shld became happier de.. but instead, i became to think too much le.. i also dunno y.. hope all my suspect is wrong.. i really hope the what i wish is true.. it is jus all my misunderstanding.. been bother with alot of things this weeks.. i also dunno how to solve these problems!! i also wan myself to be happier but i jus cant do it =(
Thursday, April 20, 2006
i've sudden thought of something...!
hmmm.. ok.. today, receive a project of doing with the yr 3 student. hmmm.. quite lucky.. =)
then had to draw some ideas today
was drawing for damn long...
still hav no ideas
then stone infront of the com for quite some time
thought of "them"
i dun really dislike the OGLS until today ba..
cos i thought them will turn back the same after today
as we actually plan to meet for lunch and after sch today
but
but
but
something happen
we hav to went for discussion
so nv meet for lunch
but then their lecturer is not here today
so they went off early
they hav the OGLS
and dun care abt us
haiz...
actually these few days really happen quite alot of things. that i dun think i will be able to take it. wherever im alone, i will think of that incident. im dun think im able to forget that and recover to myself that soon. im no longer wad i am. changed! everything change. i hate going to sch le.. then now still got so many projects coming up. and i jus hav a sudden breakdown ytd. i was totally cannot take it. y is it happening to me?? i dun understand. i will nv understand.
i may smile
but im not happy
i may laugh
but im not enjoyin
im just not the same
*will i became the same old me?
Monday, April 10, 2006
wah.. long time nv blogg liao.. since busying doing the lighting project till now... so long le.. hahas... after the project the got two months of holiday.. but also nv thought of bloggin.. also dunno y.. then now is already the last week of the holiday liao.. going to finish soon le.. so sian.. dun feel like going back to sch.. as there will be some changes. . . . hahahs.. then sch reopens le still have to do projects.. sian.. also dunno if i hav chosen the correct course or not.. since already one year.. cannot say change then change de... this holiday almost everyday stay at home leh.. sleepin everyday.. cos when sch reopen then dunno can sleep or not.. hahahs.. strange thinkin.. lol.. there are alot of changes jus in two months... why?? jus two months.. i also dunno.. hope everything will be alright=)
原来
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nice song=)
