I ENVY PPL WHO CAN TAKE THINGS EASILY. IT IS SOMETHING THAT I CANT MASTER IT. PPL ALWAYS TELL ME TO TAKE THINGS EASILY AND DUN THINK IT UNTIL TOO COMPLICATED. BUT NO MATTER HOW I WAN TO SIMPIFY THINGS, IT JUS GETS MORE AND MORE COMPLICATED. IVE BEEN ASKING PPL, WAD IF YOU NOE SOMETHING THAT YOU DUN WISH TO NOE WAD WILL YOU DO? WILL YOU GO AND FIND OUT MORE? OR YOU WILL JUS KEEP QUIET? IF YOU NOE SOMEONE IS HIDING THINGS FROM YOU WAD WILL YOU DO? IF YOU NOE SOMEONE IS TELLING YOU A LIE, OR CHEATED ON YOU WAD WILL YOU DO? BEEN HEARING DIFF KIND OF COMMENTS AND ANSWERS BUT I JUS CANT FIND ONE THAT SUITS ME. I TOOK THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY AND I HATE TAT. IT MAKES ME SUFFER AND MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE. HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. SIMPLY LIVING IN HELL. IT IS SO HARD TO MAKE A CHOICE, IF YOU NOE THAT IF YOU NOE SOMETHINGS THAT WILL MAKE YOU UNHAPPY, WILL YOU STILL WAN TO NOE? OR YOU WAN TO KEEP IN THE DARK AND PRETEND NOTHING HAS HAPPENED?
I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THINGS WHEN I DUN MEAN IT.