xueying arh!!! haiz..
okay.. jus finish my lunch. lunch was KFC? lol.. hahas.. called the delievery here.. i only work less than 3 weeks, already called twice le.. i dunno think i will be eating again within one month ba..
my mind is always not at work. is always with him. keep thinkin and thinkin abt him only. now was a bit sad la.. cos jus now listen to fish leong de song. 可惜不是你. petty that is not you. the song was quite sad. its abt a gal that feel that is a petty that the one who will finish her life with her is not this person she once tgh with. and the guy might have already enter another person's life. and he will not be back to u anymore. trying very hard to change for him but yet cant change anything. but she still thank him for been with her. held her hands before. still can feel the gentle side of him. been dote by him before is consider very luckily.
a few days after my broke up with him, once a person told me, if im not willing to wait for him, jus leave him alone. if im willing to wait for him, i should also leave him alone. from the day we broke up, it's already one month plus. it doesnt sound very long, but the things i have been thinking, has already exceed the things i have been thinking when i was still with him. things ended up this way, i keep on thinking and thinking. is it my fault? or both of us? will he be back? will he re-enter my life again? but now the fact is not whether he will re-enter again, but will he enter another's ppl life? there cases of very wei da de ai qing. that is as long as the person u love is happy, u will be contented le. i cant be so wei da. i longed to become his happiness instead of someone else. i wish that im the person that can bring him happiness even i noe that it is already in the past and NOT now.
but i shld be contented that he ONCE love me lots. and now i will have to survive on the past memories. all the things he have done for me. all the time will spend together. MEMORIES.
