jus came to noe one story of another person. who noes wad is independent. maybe now is only wad she think she is but her spirit keeps one moving.
no use blaming who fault is that and pin anymore hopes.
wad he has given me, is ENOUGH already. no matter is the good things or bad things.
if i ever gets emo or upset again, i will return to that story and i will be able to stand up.
can say im consider fortunate. he didnt use any words to hurt me. he might chose to leave me, leaving me all by myself but he noes that i will be able to get up. it is jus a matter of time only.
he chose to leave me, maybe it might be the best for both of us.
he cant commit anything to me at this moment because he wan freedom.
i need someone to commit to me as i need care and concern.
i used to blame him for avoiding me, asking him he wan to avoid till when? but now maybe all the while he has been making the right choice. cos i still cant let it go. and he knew it. so if he continue keep in close contact with me, the more im not going to carry on my life on myself.
ive said im still waiting. but it will be another form of waiting. its not waiting for us to be back as the same as before. jus waiting we will be seeing each other in the near future and dun regret on the past decisions that we have made.
he is not replaceable. he is one and only. there's only one of him. and he occupies my mind from 03 January 07 to 15 august 07. no one and nothing can replace that. thats for SURE.
can say is a lesson learned or it is an experience. from him, i learned alot of things. not jus only towards relationships, but the importance of the ppl that is around you.
no use crying over spilled milk. and no more crying for me. it wun help and it will jus push my mood down.
i will change. not because of him, but is because of myself and become a better person. and i noe he will wan to see the old xueying to be back. the one who is always so cheerful and not the one who always cry because of small matters. (: xueying will be alright.
Victor, thanks for everything u have done for me. now i wun be able to be with u, u have to take good care of urself and all the best for ur studies and future.
