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Friday, August 31, 2007

omg.. 3 more days and im going for attachment liao.. hmmm.. jus went to comex it show jus now.. saw junlong, junlong's gf, sean and sean's gf there.. saw my secondary sch mate also.. hahas.. so qiao.. actually go there is to acc jonna cos she wan to buy a external hard drive.. but in the end she brought something else.. hahas..

over there saw alot of mp3 and mp4 players.. actually before the it show i thought of buying the zen stone mp3.. but when i saw so many mp4 player there, both jonna and me was quite tempted.. hahah.. hmmm, a mp4 player with video recording, tv recording, play music, camera etc at $195.. then was like so tempted la.. may go back on sun again. =p

gtg sleep liao.. tomolo going shopping with my darling!! for formal clothes!

i didnt seen him for the past 2 weeks plus le.. i dunno how long it is going to continue. but i will be busy when my attachment starts. it makes me more reasons that im not going to have chance to see him. hmmm, he seems quite busy with his sch work also.. even i didnt contact him for the past one week. jus hope that he copes well with his life. even without my presence.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

read this somewhere. from someone's blog.
share it with you guys
Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do
1. Knows how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.

3. Stick up for you, but still respect your independence.

4. Give you the remote control during the game.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hand would always find your hand.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.

10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but know when to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.

15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.

16. Smile a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of things he wouldn't normally do because he knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Drive five hours just to see you for one.

21. Always gives you a kiss when you leave, even when his friends are watching.

22. Sing, even if he can't.

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason.

next :
When a GIRL is quiet,Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,She has made up her mind that you are her future,

When a GIRL says "i miss you",No one in this world can miss you more than that.

i totally agree with the second part and GIRLS really think it this way =)

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

wah.. tired day.. went to 3 places today.. actually today wan to wake up at maybe 9 or 10 plus de.. in the end overslept.. somemore the one who wake mi up is the HR ppl from aztech.. LOL.. then she called mi i jump up from my bed la.. cos is like already 11 plus going 12 liao.. hahas..

then prepare and make my way to ubi.. zzz.. dunno how to get there la.. keep asking direction from my mum.. finally reach there liao then sign one letter can go le.. hmmm.. when i reach there i noe i cant reach sch by 2 so i msg szesing to help me tell gary.. in the end he scold szesing la.. so paiseh.. hai you ganna scolded for nothing.. sorry.

so i reach at around 2.40? the place was damn far from our sch la.. lol.. i reach there also ganna scoldings.. say i shldnt went to the company first.. but he was right la.. i also got some faults.. cos i dunno ma.. then the ppl call mi go then i go.. stupid me..

so i was confirm posted to aztech le.. mon to fri 9 to 6.15. jia you la.. 3 months!! omg..

well, then was like only 3 plus in the afternoon.. by then only have my first meal today.. but these few days my stomach weird weird de.. cos when i eat finish then i went up.. but my stomach start making noise.. LOL.. even when i jus eat full..

slack at sch till around 5 plus then i go to cathay for the meeting.. slp in the train. tired.. well.. as usual it lasted for 2 hours plus and ends at 9.30..

went to paradiz to take 147 home and slp in the bus again.. weird leh.. last time i dun fall asleep in the public transport that often de.. unless i really very tired.. when i came back to hougang.. feel hungry so went to buy mac for my 2nd meal!

dun think today staying up late ba.. cos tomolo have to wake up early again..

hmmm.. today jus nice 2 weeks le.. =/ but jus wan you to take care of yourself and jia you for ur studies!

i jus wan to ask you one question. are you happy when you are with me? although i noe i might not get any answer by asking the question here. but i can say, im happy when im with you. =)

k.. i back to my home sweet home! with my bed, my tv, my com.. hahahahs.. but tomolo have to wake up early.. sian.. upload pics! hahas.. but most of the pic was at jonna's camera.. so have to wait for her to come back first.. i only have a few here.. =)

siti and mi! enjoying the bbq food =)

waiting for the sunrise!

im so sleepy! it morning 6am! =p

only this photo im so white =x

act cute. LOL

well.. we didnt see any sunrise at all.. sad.. try again next time! =)

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

well.. my blog was kinda of dead. nobody was here. hahas.. lol.. hmmm.. boring.. now im alone at the chalet! a 2 storey chalet yet only left mi! kinda of scary but wad alright la.. still got siji's laptop here so i can blog. miss my bed sia.. chalet always cant sleep well de..

cos always not enough space to sleep except that time at the changi chalet with the cathay ppl!! =) that time was really fun. so big so many ppl so much fun!! and didnt really worry not enough place to sleep.. hahas.. that was damn fun la! i like! hahahs... miss the fun over there.

but if wan to plan again also very difficult. alot of things change liao then everyone was like so busy. hmm.. like mi and fengyi attachment, wan ching shing yeen schooling.. chongwei zen yihong going army.. meowie.. wad were u busy with wor.. hahas.. alvin leh? hahas.. victor busy with sch work. haiz. everyone so busy. i still miss out who?

hmmm.. tomolo will be damn busy day for mi sia.. have to go ubi in the morning to aztech to sign attachment letter, then 2 pm must go back to sch for attachment briefing then night got cathay staff meeting. dunno wad they gonna talk leh..

most probably i wun stay for tonight's chalet ba.. will be going back later liao.. cos scare tomolo too tired..

sorry abt ytd! was kinda of troublesome and end up make ppl cant sleep. paiseh! its jus that chalet makes mi remind of somethings. jus hope that u are alright now. after tomolo it will be 2 weeks le. can say not consider long or short. but jus the feeling is still there. and jus feel i was quite stubborn at times that i also dun understand why.

if eveything back to square 1, will it be the same? will we end up making the same choices again? i always wonder, wad u doing now? are u alright? wad are u thinking of? were u still the same as last time? same person that i noe last time?

once, u told mi u are that kind of person that doesnt change. so now is still the same? will i get an answer for this? i dunno.

can we still get back together?

Monday, August 27, 2007

failed. haiz.. intended to upload pics on the blog but failed. will be going to sch soon.. long time nv go back liao and now is raining! super suai la.. think must bring qing tian wa wa along.. hahas.. then.. i think becos i nv put my phone properly before i sleep then when it ring, it jus slip and fell.. zzz.. when i wake up i see my phone lying on the floor la.. sian.. hope nothing wrong ba.. well... need to go and pack something liao!

yawn~~ so tired.. jus reach home not long ago.. been staying out late these few days.. jus came back from cathay nia.. hmmm.. finish the work at 10pm but went to watch the test print. only got 2 ppl finish the whole show but total got 5 ppl watching..

hmmm.. the show was quite alright.. is like a touching show ba.. teach us that dun always take things for granted and we shld be striving for the things we wan instead of waiting for the thing to fall from the sky. quite interesting.. actually this logic i think everyone knows it but ppl jus fail to fufill it.. things is always easy to say but difficult to be done. it is also like promises. ppl can promise you alot of things but they might not fufill it. so ppl, treasured the things or ppl you have now and dun regret in the future. (i've tried but i jus failed to hold it.)

hahas.. actually not really that late today.. hahas.. but i will be disappear from house for 2 and a half days!! hahas.. tml still have to reach sch at 2.30! for the nestle presentation.. sian.. somemore must wear formal wear..

xueying is as well as dead.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

i tot i was back to normal. back to the old xueying. but im jus wrong. totally wrong. im jus bluffing myself all the while. making all those empty promises to myself. it is jus so hard for mi to jus let it go. im bluffing myself and im also bluffing other ppl. i have to pretend to dun care the things that i care so much. making myself suffer. some ppl say it is jus an habit and will change as time goes by. but now is jus the worse part. wad shld i do to make mi face the reality? face the truth and everything? to trust a person that dun even care abt u is extremely hard. in the whole suitation that i dun even have a chance to say no but have to accept it and i was told that both of us was left with no choice. i dunno how long more i can withstand this kind of suffering. i dun wan to give up on something that it meant so much to mi but do i still have a chance to say no?

mine existance is so fake. without u, mine world is totally different. but to you, with or without mi, it jus doesnt matter at all.

sian! and very sian.. dunno leh.. i was like a person that was very easy affected. now i also dunno wad to do liao.. jus got back from work only.. quite tired.. but still dun wan to slpzz... tomolo still need to work la.. sian. everyday is like so sian to mi. now i also dunno wad to do.

izzit ppl usually dun treasure the things beside you and know how to regret when it has leave you? i do treasure the things i have but if the other party doesnt feel the same anymore? i dunno wad will happen in the future, but i can say i do treasure the things around me. will anyone feel any different if im no longer around?

do i look very shag? =x

Saturday, August 25, 2007

bored. wake up at 12 pm like that.. imagine i nv sleep for 24 hrs then i only sleep less than 6 hours i can make myself wake up? unbelievable.. this is not like mi la.. in the past, i wun fang kuo any chance to sleep. but now i dun like to sleep! weird.. anyway i have a bad dream. something i hope it will not happen. cos i wan to trust you. btw is it true that if u still remember the dream then it will not happen? if is true i will make sure i nv forget the dream. so it will not happen. =x sians.. starting at 7 cant possible ask mi to reach there so early.. slacking at home also dunno do wad.. well.. jus went to cut my hair.. been thinking for so long to cut my hair but i got no time!! and settle a bit of my attachment thingy liao..

ps: thanks alot for those ppl who are so concern abt mi. thx u thx u.. when i get my pay lets go out tgh!! then i will broke again liao.. hahas..
xu3yiNg jia you!

mine is not a abandon blog! hahaha.. =p

zzzz... omg.. wad am i doing at time hour? lol.. jus reach home nia.. went out with fy wc and sy.. actually wan to call more ppl de.. but everyone like not free leh.. in the end only we 4.. hahaha.. hmmm.. counting 2 more hrs, then i have been awake for the past 24 hours.. zzz.. but so strange leh.. not tired at all.. in fact, very awake.. still can blog at this moment. well.. dun have to sleep so early cos tomolo working night shift.. 7pm to 3am? haiz.. very long nv work till 3 le.. always work till 1 then i zhao liao.. hmmm.. do i really look very stone? cos my fren sis jus say so.. say i always look so stone.. haha.. stoneing? all the time.. is good to stone de ma.. actually i jus stare into space and think of things only.. today is so qiao lor.. go everywhere also can see ppl de.. like i board the train, then jus nice got seat there so walk towards there and seat down and the ppl beside mi is shaohong la.. lol.. then went to take lift at cine also saw my sec schmates.. hahah.. then later thought will see pri sch mates liao.. but in the end nv la.. well.. today also consider quite unlucky.. cos when we wan to go home, then we was at cine la.. so decided to walk wc to the bus stop to take NR then take cab home.. in the end we all no money so decided to walk to cathay to withdraw money.. cos we are already quite far from cine.. despite we are so shag and tired, especially sy cos she didnt sleep alot ytd.. finally walk to cathay liao.. then atm whited out.. zzzz.. suai? haiz.. in the end walk till paradiz.. and we took cab home.. haha.. reach home liao but jus not tired!! haiz.. cant sleep.. maybe is becos these few days i only sleep for 3-4 hours.. then not tired ba.. sian.. haven settle my attachment thingy!! zzzz...still must go for the interview first.. haiz..

mi and fengyi
chill at the coffee club =) but i dunno why behind so bright.. haha..

NOTED: never order nyny roasted mushroom cuppucino! hahas.. by darling

Friday, August 24, 2007

阿沁&李玖哲_記得愛
Nice song!

hmmm.. jus came back hm nia.. went to out to eat dinner with fy. cos her exam jus finish.. think she damn happy la.. but i got NO exams de.. lol.. then she going her attachment next week liao.. no break de.. so sad.. but i also going soon! sian.. mine was at ubi la.. zzzz... wu lu wu lu de place.. hahah.. well.. 3 months! sian.

lack of communication? if concern of someone shld show it. and trust is a impt factor

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

my world.
one week have passed. thank alot to all those ppl who willing to lend a listening ear to mi during the past few days. and it really helps! thx u thx u! hmmm.. without you ppl i also dunno wad will happen to mi. really glad that i have u guys around =) things have already happen and i cant do anything abt it. but happen means it happen le. i will not say wad exactly happen these few days. things ended up this way, i did try to save it but its not something i try, will have result de. and im alright.

once, i love this song and this movie so much.
then , i hate this song and this movie so much.
now, its still a nice song and movie to me.

ending = everything add together.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

i cant tell wad is true and wad is not true anymore. jus blame that im plain stupid. i jus wan the plain old him to come back. i dunno wad has change him. it jus make mi feel that his not him anymore. not the one that i used to know. when a person totally not concern abt u can be quite upset already. but especially someone whom u care so much are doing this to u. these two weeks, everyday work work work. after work go home sleep. super bo life and stupid. if im not working i also dunno wad to do. slack and slack at home. things are always happening the same to us. u are always right and im always wrong. u are always happy and im always the one upset. and u have things u dun wan to tell me anymore. not becos i never ask but jus that i have no chance to ask.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

it seems that u feel there's nothing wrong and things should be tat way. shld i say u take everything for granted? or im wrong again? busy? i dunno how many times i heard that word. everything u say i listen to you. but have u been in my shoe to noe what im thinking? if things continue this way, the day will come.

i like this movie! =)

Friday, August 03, 2007

it seems that u have forgotten wad date is today le. jus wan to say that i didnt forget at all. not at all and every month has been waiting for this day. but it ended up with disappointment.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

bad mood everyday~~ not really consider bad mood la.. jus cant get things to really make mi happy. everyday in such a mood makes mi dunno wad can i do to make things better. ppl say ur mood will be affect by others. like if ur fren is not happy, u also wun feel that good. my darling fengyi arh.. -_-" recently very stress over her project.. then see her very sian also.. must jia you. dun worry very fast will past de. but im not much better.. even im not busy with my projects, doesnt mean im feeling much better. things get worse for me. i noe is not right to write about somethings over here. but honestly, have to say it is not easy to find someone that really zhen xin listening to you talking and talking over the same thing. and u will also dun wan to trouble ur fren when everybody is so busy with their thing. im been told not to think too much on somethings, and i also say i duncare or nevermind, which deep inside i care so much and the word nevermind jus wan to end things smoothly. in the past, i will stand for my right even at the cost of ended up quarreling. but now everything i jus say nevermind and suffer myself. cos even end up quarrel im still not the winning side. is not that everything i wan to win but i wan everything to be fair? i dunno whether thats the correct word to use. i noe in a relationship, there's nothing called fair and obviously there will be the one out the two giving more that the other. i dun mind be the one giving more but i cant see what im getting back, i dun expect to have anything big but jus a little concern and care really consider that much? jus a little out of the amount that u given mi in the past? but, i jus wan to say," you ni wo shi kuai le de"