happy gal =D

2011-06-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

These are not jus a set of numbers.. These are the numbers that is hurting me.

2011-03-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

maybe when one day you have decided to turn back your head to look for me, you might discover that im a changed person or i might not be standing and be the one waiting for you.

no one will understand wad im going through. the sames goes with i dun understand anyone else. thats why there's always a saying. live for yourself and not live for others. if you are the someone who is so used to a person, and expecting that he or she will always be there for you, pls dun think it this way.

cos you might lose it without you realizing it. maybe you wun even shed a tear or feel anything if you lose it.

2011-03-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

Is either move on to the next part or it's gonna die here.

2011-03-27T13:51:00.000+08:00

Disappointment always comes with expectations.

2011-03-23T18:58:00.001+08:00

Is there anyone that I can tok to? I'm seriously worried.

2011-03-20T11:20:00.001+08:00

I will nt do that again. Only show how dumb I'm.

2011-03-20T11:19:00.000+08:00

Know that I'm not in your plan. Sorry that most likely u will nt be in mine.

2011-03-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ive should have known better. How much is it to you.

2011-03-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

The changes, makes me, feels, neglected.

2011-03-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

從妳的眼角慢慢地明瞭
我能做的很少
原來妳藏著傷但不想和我聊

妳選的電影像某種預告
不坦白的主角
最後流著眼淚堅持獨自走掉

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

呵護地祈禱溫柔地討好
愛能讓人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道我們和你們不能比較
但我的愛多強悍出乎妳預料

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道太美的回憶像副手銬
越是掙脫越纏繞我比妳明瞭

2011-03-07T20:57:00.002+08:00

Been doing alot of thinking.. Pondering alot of things.. When a ger keep quiet, doesn't means she has nothing to say.. Is jus that she do not know to use words to describe how she feels.. And she noes, sometimes, it doesn't do any help by saying anything.. Words doesn't helps, explanations doesnt help.. It will never change the fact.. And it doesn't change the truth. It's only up to her to believe.. Maybe she knew everything right from the start. Been waiting for that moment.

2011-02-21T21:39:00.001+08:00

ive guess everything here has been forgotten.

2011-02-21T21:35:00.002+08:00

也许有一天你回头，你会发现我已不再那个路口。

1.很偶尔的，你会找我，联系我，你的突然出现，还是会挑拨我的心弦。只是，我也学会对你伪装了，不冷不热，不咸不淡，笑得没心没肺，也不会再流那廉价的眼泪了。然后听你轻轻地说：“你变了。”

2.总要等到过了很久，总要等退无可退，才知道我们曾亲手舍弃的东西，在后来的日子里，再也遇不到了。

3.回家的路上我哭了，眼泪再一次崩溃了，我无能为力这样走着，再也不敢骄傲奢求了，我还能够说些什么？我还能够做些什么？我好希望你会听见，因为爱你，我让你走了。

4.再见了，我那么那么爱你，虽然笨拙，但也努力做了好多，所以我不遗憾了。现在，我把爱情还给你，你把我仅有的一点点骄傲还给我好不好？

5.我还是会相信爱情，只是不会再相信爱情能永远。

6.你突然点醒我，我们相识的时间能够以年计算了，你找到了你爱的，而我，还在原地徘徊着。

7.我们再也不会像以前那样，以彼此为不可替代；我们再也不会像以前那样，那样用力的爱，直到哭了出来。

8.陪你走完这一段路，你也变成我路过的路。

9.如果可以请不要念念不忘，伤口好了，就要舍得离开。

10.望穿你眼中的流年，我相信你真的爱过我，就像我当初真的为了你，可生可死。

11.一天，我终于不再思念他，因为他离开太久了，我的习惯已经不再是习惯。

12.一直固执的以为面对什么事情我都能够坦然的微笑，可是，终于在你转身决定离去的一刹那，我泪如泉涌，不可抑制。这是，过往的幸福嘲笑着心中的疼痛，原来，世界上最痛的痛是离开。

13.我赢了所有人，却输掉了你。

14.最浪漫的情话，是当那个已经跟你分手了的情人打电话来问：“你好吗？”你稀松平常的回答：“我很好。”而其实你还爱着他，你一点也不好。

15.有天当你想起我，时间已摆平所有的错，也学会不再问为什么。直到有一天，面对爱情开始吝啬，会不会怀念当初的炙热？一路上经过各自曲折，直到有一天，选某个人相濡以沫。

16.我唯一没有做好的事，就是说了“我爱你”。

17.当看破一切的时候，才知道，原来失去比拥有更踏实。

18.有一个人，教会你怎样去爱了，但是，他却不爱你了

19.与其到处找借口，不如直接说一句我不爱了。

20.没有他我不会不习惯，因为我从来没有习惯拥有他。

21.忘记那个人，不如忘记自己，告诉自己，不是怕他忘记，而是怕他有一天重新把你想起。岁月带走的是记忆，但回忆会越来越清晰。真的有一天，他回过头来告诉你，他一直在惦记你，千万不要相信，因为，他已经不是原来的他，而你，也不再是过去的你。

22.我再也不会奋不顾身的去爱一个人了，哪怕是你。

23.你没有错，是我飞蛾扑火。

24.我心里一直有你，只是比例变了而已。

25.现在终于到了要分别的时候，他比我先走，我反而觉得有点欣慰。这样的悲伤，迟早会让我们其中一个人单独体会，就让我来承担好了。

26.望着你离开的背影，我告诉自己要坚强，不哭，是因为爱你，更是因为懂你。

27.我们都这样离散在岁月的风里，回过头去，却看不到曾经在一起的痕迹，尽管，曾今那么用力的在一起过。

28.转弯只为遇见你，却忘记了，你也会转弯。

29.总以为，在最初的地方，有一个最原来的我，就也会有一个最原来的你。

30.是你变了心，还是白天黑夜交换了时差？你笑着说，我们还是似曾相识的朋友样子。我住在这个伤感的城市，而你却在那头看不见的城市，没有你的城市我只是一个人独自，而你却依然存活的快活。我把所有白纸写满你的名字，写满我对你的所有心事，我想把对你的爱全部颠覆，让你知道这些都是事实。

31.对于你，我始终只能以陌生人的身份去怀念。

32.你有新欢了，我连旧爱都不是。

33.也许有一天，你回头了，而我却早已，不在那个路口。

34.结局和过程都有了，再去纠缠，连自己都觉得贪婪。

35.忘记你，是为了证明我可以忘记你。

36.撕心裂肺的挽留，不过是心有不甘的表现。

37.我们说好一起老去看细水长流，却将成为别人的某某，在分岔的路口，你在左，我在右，我们都倔强的不曾回头。

38.藏在心底的话并不是故意要去隐瞒，只是并不是所有的疼痛都可以呐喊。

39.人这一辈子，真爱只有一回，而后即便再有如何缱绻的爱情，终究不会再伤筋动骨。

40.世界上最遥远的距离，是你转身后，我眼泪坠落的轨迹。

41.不停的写日记，我不知道停不住的究竟是笔，还是记忆。

42.幸福要各自去寻找，最后会习惯一个人的风景。那么久以后，我终于学会了微笑着想他。

43.在这个城市，做一道路过的风景，做一次匆匆的过客，只为了一个人。

44.我对你，只有放弃，没有忘记。

45.第一次的爱，始终无法轻描淡写。

46.分手后，我还认识你，不过不再想见你，你过的好，我不会祝福你，你过的不好，我也不会嘲笑你，因为我们从此陌生，你的世界不再有我，我的世界不再有你。我不能再珍惜你，抱歉，我失去的，也是你失去的。

47.没有什么忘不了的，总会在以后的时间忘了你，先忘了你的样子，再忘了你的声音，忘了你说过的话，现在不行，以后也可以。

48.似乎等待了一百年，忽然明白，即使再见面，成熟的表演，不如不见。

49.让我站在心碎的地方，轻轻打一个结，一种缝补，阻止伤痛再流出。

50.我知道，忘记是件轻松的事情，只要不看着，不想着，不记着，就忘记了，就像，烟火过后的天空。

2010-07-04T12:50:00.002+08:00

WATCHING THE 100TH MOVIES WITH BABY YTD. STARTED OUR FIRST MOVIES AT THE CATHAY, WATCHING OUR 100TH MOVIES AT THE CATHAY.

THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. PEOPLE CAME AND LEAVE FOR A REASON TOO. NO MATTER IT IS GOOD OR BAD, YOU CANT STOP IT FROM HAPPENING. IT WILL HAVE TO DEPEND ON HOW YOU ARE GOING TO HANDLE IT. IT ACTUALLY HELPS SOMEONE TO THINK BETTER AND NOE WAD DOES HE OR SHE REALLY WANTED.
THINGS ALWAYS CHANGE WITHOUT YOU REALISING IT. AND BY THE TIME YOU AWARE, IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE. YOU NEVER NOE HOW AND WHEN DOES IT REALLY STARTED, ITS JUS LIKE WHEN U REALISE, IT SEEMS LIKE YOU WOKE UP FROM A DREAM, AND IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE.
SOMETIMES IF YOU LIVE IT AND DO NOTHING WHEN THINGS HAPPEN IT MIGHT BE GOTTEN WORSE BUT IT MAY NOT BE THE CASE. SOMETIMES IF YOU LEAVE IT, NOTHING MAY HAPPEN. BUT WHEN YOU OVERDONE IT, TRYING TO FIND THE TRUTH OF EVERYTHING, IT WILL JUS MAKE THING EVEN WORSE. OR GETTING THE ENDING OF THING EARLIER WHEN YOU ACTUALLY WAN IT TO BE A LASTING ONE.
THERE'S ALWAYS A SAYING; 长痛不如短痛。BUT HOW MANY PPL CAN LAST THROUGH THIS PAIN? OR IF YOU HANDLE IT DIFFERENTLY THE RESULT WILL BE DIFFERENT? NO ONE CAN CONFIRM ON IT.

BEEN STARTED 2 MONTH PLUS OF MY WORK. EVERYTHING IS DOING WELL. EXCEPT THE TURNOVER RATE IS SCARY.

2010-04-25T20:01:00.003+08:00

DUN REALLY NOE IF IT IS A BRAND NEW START FOR ME.. FOR THE PAST ONE WEEK IS KINDA BORING.. NOTHING MUCH TO DO. ALTHOUGH IT SEEMS LIKE IS A GOOD DEAL FOR ME BUT THE TIME REALLY PAST SO SLOOOWWLY SIA.. HOPE THAT THERE'S THINGS TO DO SO THAT MY TIME WILL PAST A BIT FASTER.. X.X

SO FAR SO GOOD.. NEVER LATE FOR WORK... HAHAS.. COS IT IS REALLY QUITE NEAR MY HOUSE.. JUS THAT EVERYTIME WHEN GOING HOME IT STARTED RAINING.. AND THE BUS IS USUALLY PACKED LIKE SARDINE AND THE ROAD IS ALWAYS JAM. WASTE MY TIME.. LOL.. RAIN GOD.. PLEASE DUN ALWAYS STARTS TO RAIN WHENEVER I NEED TO GO HOME.. X.X I THINK ALOT OF PPL WILL BE GRATEFUL TO YOU DE.. =D

2010-04-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

BRAND NEW START ON NEXT MONDAY. WISH ME LUCK THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. =)

2010-02-28T11:02:00.002+08:00

IM IN THE LEARNING PROCESS NOW. LEARNING SOMETHING. NOT SOMETHING NEW. BUT SOMETHING THAT IVE ONCE HAVE. SOMETHING THAT EVERYONE HAS IT DEEP INSIDE THEIR HEART. EITHER THEY DID NOT USE IT OR THEY FEEL THAT THEY HAVE NO NEED FOR IT THEY WILL STARTS TO FORGET IT BIT BY BIT AND WHEN THEY REALIZE, THEY HAVE ALREADY LOST IT. ONCE, I HAVE IT, AND I HAVE USED IT.

BUT AS TIMES GOES BY, IM LIVING IN MY COMFORT ZONE, I FEEL THAT I HAVE NO USE FOR IT SO I STARTED TO LET IT DISAPPEAR BIT BY BIT IN MY HEART. AND NOW I NEED TO FIND IT BACK. WHETHER IT WILL DO ME AND GOOD OR WILL IT CHANGE ANYTHING, IT WILL HAVE TO LEAVE IT TO FATE. BUT OF COURSE, MY INTENTION IS FOR THE GOOD FOR EVERYONE.

2010-02-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

BEEN SO LONG NEVER REALLY BLOG ABOUT MYSELF, BLOG ABOUT THINGS THAT IS HAPPENNING AROUND ME.

THESE FEW YEARS, I GUESS IVE REALLY CHANGE ALOT. ESPECIALLY LAST TWO YEARS. I DUNNO HOW TO PUT IN WORDS. IM DIFFERENT. FROM WAD IM INITIALLY. HAVE GOOD AND BAD. GOOD THING IS I THINK IVE GAIN MORE EXPERIENCE FROM LIFE. BUT DOES ALL THESE BENIFITS ME OR IT HAS GOTTEN ME WORSE? MORE EXPERIENCE IN LIFE, KNOW MORE AND MORE ABOUT HOW HUMAN THINKS AND WAD HUMAN WILL DO. USED TO THINK THAT HUMAN ARE INNOCENT. WHATEVER THEY DO, THEY DUN MEAN IT. JUS LIKE A SMALL KID THAT WUN HURT ANYONE. BUT THE TRUTH IS, THE OLDER A PERSON GET, THE MORE THEY DUN UNDERSTAND THEMSELVES.

LOOKING BACK AT THE FLASHBACK OF MY LIFE, PEOPLE WHO HAVE WENT THROUGH AND LEAVE MY LIFE. DID I EVER LEAVE A PLACE IN SOMEONE'S LIFE TOO?

DOES REGRET GOING TO BRING ANYTHING BACK? DOES REGRET GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING THAT HAS ALREADY IN THE PAST TENSE? OR WILL IT GOING TO HURT AND CHANGE WHATEVER YOU ARE HAVING? WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVING REGRETS? TREASURE WHATEVER YOU HAVE AND HOPEFULLY WE DO NOT BRING ANY REGRETS IN OUR LIFE.

WITHOUT MAKING ON THE FIRST STEP, IT IS NOT GOING TO BRING ME ANY FURTHER. THE MORE YOU TREASURE, THE MORE YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO CHANGE. THE MORE YOU CANT LET GO, THE MORE YOU ARE GOING TO GET HURT. THE MORE YOU GIVE IN, IT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU WILL BE ABLE TO GET WAD U EXPECTED TO.

2010-02-25T16:55:00.002+08:00

永远不要对女人说谎。因为女人一眼就可以看穿了。你知道男人和女人说谎最大的差别在哪里吗？男人说谎，是要让自己觉得好过。而女人说谎呢，是要让对方好过。女人选择欺骗，是因为不想伤害深爱的人，不是故意的，只是没有伤害对方的勇气。

败犬女王

2010-02-21T18:59:00.000+08:00

当你发现原本你以为只属于你的，如今已不再是你一个人的，难免会感到难过。而这属于你的竟然要和别人分享，你会作和选择呢？有人常说，是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的。勉强是不会幸福的。可是当你已经天真的以为那就是你的幸福，而事情却不是你想的样呢？

2010-02-19T18:29:00.004+08:00

懂得珍惜的人，只不过想好好的被真心对待。
懂得付出的人，只不过想好好的能得到真爱。
得不到真心与真爱的对待，只是一次又一次的伤害。
如果无法珍惜，真心对待，付出真爱，就别再伤害值得的人。

2010-02-17T08:41:00.001+08:00

如果上天让你失去一个达浪，它一定会还你另一个达浪。

2010-02-12T17:09:00.002+08:00

I ALSO DUNNO WAD'S WRONG WITH ME. HATE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING. WHATEVER MOOD SWING CAN YOU JUS PLEASE GO AWAY!! ITS MAKES ME HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE FOR DOING AND SAYING THE THINGS THAT I SHOULD NOT AND I DUN INTEND TO. I JUS WAN TO LEAD A SIMPLE AND PEACEFUL LIFE WITH MY FRIENDS AND MY LOVED ONES.

2010-02-02T21:25:00.001+08:00

NO MORE WORRIES ON THE HOLE ON MY TOOTH!! FINALLY CAN HAVE A GOOD GOOD SLEEP.. BUT NOW GOT A BIG BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET. GONNA SAVE BACK THE $$, NO MORE SHOPPING, NO MORE CLOTHES, NO MORE BAG LIAO.. X.X

2010-01-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

IT JUS SOMETHING THAT IM NOT UP TO IT. THINGS THAT IM BEEN TRYING, DONE EVERYTHING THAT I CAN. BUT IM JUS NOT UP TO IT. IM JUS NOT THE RIGHT PERSON. NO MATTER WAD IVE DONE, NO MATTER HOW HARD IVE TRIED, IT WILL NOT WORKS. OTHER PPL MIGHT MAKE IT WORKS WITHOUT ANY EFFORT BECAUSE THEY ARE JUS THAT RIGHT ONE FOR IT. NO MATTER HOW MUCH IVE CHANGE BECAUSE OF IT, IT WILL NOT CHANGE THE FACT THAT IM NOT UP TO IT.

2010-01-24T20:32:00.028+08:00

WOOTS~~ IM BACK.. HAHAS.. 5DAY 4NITE BANGKOK TRIP.. DID ALOT OF WALKING AND WALKING, SHOPPING AND SHOPPING~~ CAME BACK WITH LOTS OF LOOTS.. HAHAS.. LET THE PIC DO THE TALKING BA.. =D

2010-01-20T07:10:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY PPL.. FLYING TO BANGKOK IN LIKE LESS THAN AN HOUR~~~ CYA PPL WHEN IM BACK!!! SHOP TILL I DROP~~ HAHAS.. BYEEEE =D

2010-01-18T11:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY~~~

HAPPY 2YEARS AND 3MONTHS BABY~~

2010-01-14T18:57:00.000+08:00

18 JANUARY. SUCH A NICE AND HAPPENING DATE. LETS SEE HOW WILL FATE BRING ME TO.

2010-01-11T18:43:00.002+08:00

RECENTLY ALOT OF SETBACKS. WHICH MAKES ME FEELS LIKE GIVING UP. SHLD I OR SHLD I FIGHT TILL THE END EVEN I DUNNO IF THE RESULTS IS WAD I WANTED?

2010-01-01T15:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE!! HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR. =D

A BRAND NEW YEAR, A BRAND NEW START. EVERYONE STAY HAPPY =)

2009-12-30T18:30:00.001+08:00

RANDOMS~
THINGS MIGHT HAVE CHANGE WITHOUT EVEN ANYONE NOTICING IT.

2009-12-28T13:09:00.002+08:00

800 DAYS=)

2009-12-22T08:27:00.002+08:00

CHRISTMAS~ KINDA OF A LONELY FESTI. CANT FEEL THE WARM OF PPL CELBBRATING IT. JUS FEEL COLD N LONELY. 25TH DEC, I ONLY NOE OF EXCHANGE PRESENT. THATS ALL. NO GRAND CELEBRATION, NO FABULOUS DINNER BLA BLA.. TRIED NOT TO DEVOTE MYSELF TOO MUCH IN ANY FESTIVAL. SO AS TO NOT GETTING ANY DISAPPOINTMENT. OR JUS STAY OUT OF IT AND BE NEUTRAL. AND THIS WILL GOES WITH OTHER FESTIVAL TOO. NOTHING SPECIAL, NOTHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT. FEW MORE DAYS COMING TO THE END OF 2009. NO ACHIEVEMENT, NO NOTHING.

COLD WHITE CHRISTMAS.

2009-12-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

DID A LOT OF THINKING TODAY. GUESS MY BRAIN IS GETTING TIRED THAT'S WHY IM EXPERENCING SOME SLIGHT HEADACHE. DID A LOT OF WISHFUL THINKING, THINKING ABOUT MY PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE, DOS AND DONTS. WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I DO THIS OR THAT, AND WAD WILL HAPPEN IF I DONT.

BEEN THINKING WAD KIND OF PERSON AM I? WAD KIND OF LIFE IM NOW LEADING? AND WAD WILL THIS LEAD ME TO? SUDDENLY FELT VERY LOST. JUS LIKE LOSING MY WAY IN A FOREST. SHOULD REMAIN AT A SPOT TO WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO SAVE ME? OR SHOULD I EXPLORE AROUND TO FIND A WAY OUT? OR SHOULD I GRAB ON SOMEONE THAT I DUNNO WHERE HE OR SHE WILL BRING ME TO?

INSECURITY?

2009-11-30T00:21:00.003+08:00

SOMETHING TO ADD ON.
THANKS BABY FOR SPENDING THE TWO DAYS WITH ME AFTER MY BDAE CELEBRATION. REALLY HAD ALOT OF FUN. =) LOVE YOU.

2009-11-29T19:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

FINALLY IM 21ST YEARS OLD.. SO OLD ALEADY.. LOL.. ENOUGH OF THE CRAPS..

FIRSTLY, I WANNA THANKS SOME PPL TO MAKE MY BIRTHDAY PARTY WORKS..
THANKS MY BABY, FENG YI, KEN AND KAI.. THANKS FOR COMING SO EARLY TO HELP TO SET UP THE THINGS. YOU ALL ARE REALLY GREAT!!

THANKS BABY FOR HELPING ME TO PREPARE THE FOOD, HELP TO BUY THE NECCESSARY THINGS, WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING TO PREPARE AND FETCH ME TO COLLECT THE CAKE AND SENT ME THERE.

THANKS BABY, FENG YI, KEN AND KAI FOR HELPING ME TO DO SOME LAST MINUTE SHOPPING, DOING UP ALL THE DECORATIONS, SETTING UP THE BBQ PIT AND STANDING THE WHOLE NIGHT THERE BBQING.

THANKS EVERYONE FOR COMING TO MY PARTY AND MAKE IT SO LIVELY AND HAPPENING. THANKS FOR ALL THE PRESENTS AND I REALLY LOVE IT. THANKS FOR THE LITTLE LITTLE MSG THAT WAS WRITTEN ON MY GUEST BOOK. I WILL KEEP IT AS A PART OF YOUR WISHES THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME.

THANKS BABY FOR SUPPORTING ME THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE PREPARATION AND CELEBRATION. I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE ALREADY VERY TIRED BUT STILL FOR THE SAKE OF ME YOU ENDURE AND PULLED IT THROUGH. THANKS BABY FOR THE SPECIAL PRESENT THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME. REALLY LOVES IT LOTS. THANKS BABY.

2009-11-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

PIGGY BABY YOU.. LOVE YOU LOTS TOO =)

2009-11-22T21:19:00.003+08:00

HEY EVERYONE, VERY SOON WE WILL BE STEPPING INTO 2010. EVERYTHING JUS FEEL LIKE IS YTD ONLY. TIME FLIES~ BEEN LOOKING THROUGH THE PAST POST TO SEE WAD IVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS. AND IVE REALLY CHANGE ALOT. REALLY ALOT OF THINGS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING AROUND ME AND IT HAS ALREADY BECOME A PART OF ME. EVERYONE IS GROWING UP DAY BY DAY AND WE ARE GETTING STRONGER AND STRONGER. ABLE TO HANDLE AND FACE MORE THINGS.

5 MORE DAYS =)

2009-11-21T11:50:00.003+08:00

PRETTY TIRED. BEEN SLEEPING ALOT THESE 2 DAYS. BUT STILL FEELING VERY TIRED. MAYBE IS BECOS OF THE STUPID MEDICINE THAT MAKE MY TONGUE SO NUMB AND TASTELESS.. X.X AND I FEEL SO DROWZY AFTER EVERYTIME I EAT THE MEDICINE.. BETTER GET REALLY WELL BEFORE THE DAY.

2009-11-20T16:58:00.000+08:00

IVE ALWAYS THINK THAT TIDYING UP MY ROOM IS AN ACHIEVEMENT. =)

2009-11-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

BACKACHE..... OLD LIAO OLD LIAO.. SHAKE HEAD* HAIZ..

2009-11-14T12:04:00.002+08:00

O.Ooo FINALLY THIS BUSY WEEK IS GONNA OVER.. SO IM LEFT WITH MY BUSY MONTH. NOVEMBER IS REALLY A BUSY MONTH FOR ME. SO MANNNY THINGS TO DO. BUT AT LEAST ALL THE THING IVE DONE IS GONNA BE WORTHWHILE..

LEFT TWO MORE WEEKS TO PLAN FOR MY BIRTHDAY. HOPE EVERYONE GONNA ENJOY THE DAY AND JOIN IN THE FUN.... HAHAHAS..

LALALALALAS.. SHOULD PAMPER MYSELF FOR ALL THE HARDWORK.. HAHAS..

2009-11-13T17:11:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO~~~~ SUPERB HAPPY!!! THANK EVERYONE FOR YOUR WISHES AND I DID IT!!!! YES.. HAHAS.. SO HAPPY HAPPY.. =)

2009-11-12T12:20:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAS.. SPENDING THE LAST FEW MINS AT WORK FOR THIS WEEK BLOGGING.. HOHOHO.. TOOK HALF DAY AND TOMORROW OFF THIS WEEK. ALL THE BEST BEST BEST FOR ME =)) EVERYONE WENT FOR LUNCH LE BUT IM STILL IN THE OFFICE. GONNA LEAVE AT 12.30 SHARP.. HAHAS..

THANKS BABY YTD FOR THE SWEET SURPRISE =D

AS FOR JONNA, MOST IMPORTANTLY YOU MUST BE HAPPY K?

HOHOHOHO. ANOTHER 15DAYS I WILL BE OFFICIALLY 21!! HAHAHAS.. 12.28 NOW.. SWITCH OFF COM...........................

2009-11-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

BUSY MONTH, BUSY WEEK.
HAPPY EVERYBODY =)

2009-11-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

I TREASURE IT.

2009-10-27T19:18:00.003+08:00

IVE JUS GOT A WEIRD FEELING. SOMETHING THAT I DUNNO HOW TO PUT IT IN WORDS. FEEL IT WHENEVER IM ALONE AT HOME. FEEL IT WHEN EVERYONE IS DOING SO WELL BUT IM STILL THE SAME OLD ME.

IVE GOT A PROBLEM. IF YOU ARE AWARE OF SOMETHING THAT YOU DUN WAN TO NOE, WILL YOU GO AND CLARIFY AND THRASH THINGS OUT? OR U WILL JUS PRETEND THAT YOU DUNNO ANYTHING AND BEAR EVERYTHING YOURSELF? PPL TELLING ME TO THINK OF THE WORSE CASE SCENARIO. AND I FULLY NOE WHAT WILL BE THE WORSE CASE SCENARIO IF I THRASH THINGS OUT. ITS JUS THAT IM NOT PREPARE FOR IT. OR I DUNNO IF IM ABLE TO HANDLE IT.

2009-10-20T18:41:00.015+08:00

PHOTOS ON 181009.

2009-10-17T12:37:00.001+08:00

729days =)

2009-10-12T21:02:00.002+08:00

BEEN SEENING EVERYONE IS DOING GREAT. HAPPY FOR THEM. THOSE WHO CAN FORGET ABOUT THE PAST AND CARRY ON WITH THEIR PRESENT AND FUTURE. WE SHOULD NOT CLING ON THE OUR PAST AS IT WILL ONLY HURT OR CAUSE DAMAGE TO YOUR PRESENT AND YOUR FUTURE. WHATS OVER IS OVER. YOU CAN NEVER WIND BACK THE CLOCK. SO TO ALL MY FRENS AND EVERYONE WHO WILL SEE THIS, PLEASE PLEASE, DUN CLING ON TO YOUR PAST OR KEEPING ON THINKING ABOUT YOUR PAST. IT WILL ONLY MAKE YOUR PRESENT SUFFER. AND DO YOU THINK YOUR PRESENT REALLY DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS? IT WILL ONLY CAUSE MORE AND MORE REGRET IN YOUR LIFE. WAD EVER THAT HAS OVER, I HAVE PUT BEHIND ME AND IT WILL NOT BOTHER ME ANYMORE. SO WAD ABOUT YOU? ACTUALLY I'VE NO IDEA WHO AM I ASKING. IT DOESNT MATTER ANYWAY. JUS TALKING ABOUT SOME RUBBISHES.

I GUESS EVERYONE HAS A LEARNING STAGE TO PASS THROUGH. IT IS JUS THAT YOU NEED HOW MANY TIMES OR HOW LONG TO PASS IT. THIS SAME GOES FOR DRIVING. NO ONE ON EARTH NOES HOW TO DRIVE SINCE THE DAY HE OR SHE IS BORN. THEY WILL NEED TO GO THROUGH THE LEARNING STAGE, FALL AND CLIMB UP BEFORE THEY NOE HOW TO DRIVE. THEY ALSO NEED TO GO THROUGH LESSON AND TEST BEFORE THEY CAN DRIVE A CAR SAFETY. NOT EVERYONE IS ABLE TO PAST THE TEST AT THEIR FIRST TIME. SO IF THEY FAILED, THEY WILL NEED TO TRY AGAIN. BUT IF THEY FAILED, DO THEY HAVE TO COURAGE TO TAKE THE TEST AGAIN? OR WILL THEY JUS GIVE UP? IF YOU HAVE FALLEN OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP, WILL YOU TRY THE NEXT ONE AGAIN? OR YOU WILL WAN TO STAY SINGLE FOR YOU REST OF YOUR LIFE? THE SAME GOES FOR EVEN IF YOU PASS YOUR DRIVING TEST, BUT WILL YOU BE GURANTEE TO DRIVE SAFETY FOR YOUR REST OF YOUR LIFE? OR WILL YOU MET WITH AN ACCIDENT AND YOU DUN DARE TO ENTER A DRIVER SEAT AGAIN? IF YOU HAVE GONNA MARRIED WITH SOMEONE AND YOU REALISE THAT BOTH OF YOU REALLY DUN SUIT EACH OTHER AND ENDED UP DIVORCE, WILL YOU PICK UP YOUR COURAGE AND GET INTO ANOTHER MARRIAGE? OR YOU HAVE LOST TRUST IN EVERYONE? THIS POST IS SO CHIM. DUNNO HOW MANY PPL WILL UNDERSTAND. TO SUMMARRISE, ITS COMPARING DRIVING AND RELATIONSHIP. THERE'S PPL STARTED IT LATE OR EARLY. IT ALL DEPENDS ON INDIVIDUAL. RUBBISHES ME.

2009-10-11T22:21:00.003+08:00

I ENVY PPL WHO CAN TAKE THINGS EASILY. IT IS SOMETHING THAT I CANT MASTER IT. PPL ALWAYS TELL ME TO TAKE THINGS EASILY AND DUN THINK IT UNTIL TOO COMPLICATED. BUT NO MATTER HOW I WAN TO SIMPIFY THINGS, IT JUS GETS MORE AND MORE COMPLICATED. IVE BEEN ASKING PPL, WAD IF YOU NOE SOMETHING THAT YOU DUN WISH TO NOE WAD WILL YOU DO? WILL YOU GO AND FIND OUT MORE? OR YOU WILL JUS KEEP QUIET? IF YOU NOE SOMEONE IS HIDING THINGS FROM YOU WAD WILL YOU DO? IF YOU NOE SOMEONE IS TELLING YOU A LIE, OR CHEATED ON YOU WAD WILL YOU DO? BEEN HEARING DIFF KIND OF COMMENTS AND ANSWERS BUT I JUS CANT FIND ONE THAT SUITS ME. I TOOK THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY AND I HATE TAT. IT MAKES ME SUFFER AND MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE. HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. SIMPLY LIVING IN HELL. IT IS SO HARD TO MAKE A CHOICE, IF YOU NOE THAT IF YOU NOE SOMETHINGS THAT WILL MAKE YOU UNHAPPY, WILL YOU STILL WAN TO NOE? OR YOU WAN TO KEEP IN THE DARK AND PRETEND NOTHING HAS HAPPENED?

I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THINGS WHEN I DUN MEAN IT.

2009-09-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW IS THE DAY =)

2009-09-16T13:39:00.002+08:00

LIFE IS FULL OF SO MANY DOS AND DON'TS. AND OF COS MAKING DECISION. MAKING A DECISION IS DAMN HARD FOR ME. COS I ALWAYS WILL THINK OF WILL I REGRET? WILL I END UP EVEN MORE UNHAPPY? WELL, MAKING A GOOD DECISION IS IMPORTANT. IN LIFE, IT ALWAYS CANT BEAR TO HAVE A SLIGHT MISTAKE. SOUND SO CHIM TO ME. BUT WHO IN THE LIFE DUN MAKE MISTAKES? EVERYONE BOUND TO MAKE MISTAKES AND IT DEPENDS ON HOW SERIOUS THE MISTAKE IS AND IF IT IS FORGIVABLE. PPL ALWAYS SAY, IF I NOE THIS OR THAT, I WILL NOT DO THIS OR THAT.. BLA.. THATS A SAYING, MAKING A DECISION IS LIKE WHEN YOU ARE OVERSEAS AND YOU SAW SOMETHING THAT YOU LIKE AND WANTED TO BUY. BUT IF YOU DIDNT BUY IT AND TOOK THE PLANE BACK, YOU CAN NEVER OWN THE THING. EH.. ANYWAY YOU CAN TOOK THE PLANE BACK AGAIN TO BUY THE THING. LOL.

ENOUGH OF THOSE LOGIC OR NON LOGIC SAYING. LOL. ONE MORE WEEK. 7 MORE DAYS. AND .... HOPE THAT I CAN SETTLE IT ONCE AND FOR ALL. DUN WAN TO WASTE TIME AND WASTE MONEY. RECENTLY I'M DAMN BROKE. ALSO DUNNO WHY. DIDNT SAVE ANY SINGLE CENT FOR THE PAST 5 MONTHS AND KEEP ON TOUCHING ON MY SAVINGS. THIS IS A VERY SERIOUS PROBLEM. OMG. WHEN CAN I EVER SAVE UNTIL MY TARGET?? LOL.ACTUALLY I DUN HAVE ANY TARGET. THE MORE THE MERRIER. ZZZZ.. DIDNT NOE HOW DID I EVER SURVIVE DURING MY POLY TIME WHEN THE PAY IS MORE THAN TWICE THE AMOUNT LESSER THAN NOW. EVEN THOUGH NOW IS ALSO VERY LITTLE LAH.. LOL . FAINT. NO MORE SHOPPING FOR ME. HAIZ.

2009-09-08T14:26:00.003+08:00

HUMANS ARE THE MOST CUNNING CREATURE IN THIS WORLD. EVERYTHING THAT THEY SAID IS ALL A LIE. A LIE TO COVER THEIR MISTAKES AND TO COVER THEIR GREEDS. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRUSTED THE PERSON, THEY WILL JUST BREAK THE TRUST AND LIE TO YOU. I TRUSTED YOU ALL SO MUCH AND YOU ALL ARE JUST TAKING ME AS A FOOL AND PRETEND NOTHING HAS HAPPEN. YOU ALL ARE CHEATERS. AND I SWEAR I WILL NEVER TRUST WHATEVER YOU ALL SAY. IVE DONE NOTHING WRONG. WHATEVER YOU ALL SAY, I LISTEN AND BELIEVE YOU. BUT THIS KIND OF THING YOU ALL STILL WAN TO BLUFF YOUR WAY THROUGH. I HATE IT AND I'M GONNA PROTECT MYSELF AND NOT GOING TO BELIEVE ANY SINGLE WORD. WHATEVER YOU ALL SAY IS FULL OF CRAP AND SHIT. WHAT YOU ALL DID IS FOR YOU OWN BENIFIT AND YOU ALL ONLY CARE ABOUT YOURSELF. I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE THIS STUPID BLOODY PLACE. NOTHING OVER HERE IS WORTH STAYING ANYMORE. INITIALLY I STILL TOT THAT YOU ALL ARE BAD, BUT AT LEAST SOMEONE THAT I CAN TRUST. BUT THE TRUTH IS NOT. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU TOOK ME FOR A RIDE, I BEAR WITH IT AND I STILL THINK THAT AT LEAST YOU ARE WORTH TRUSTING. SOMEONE THAT I CAN TALK TO. BUT YOU ALL ARE JUST TOO MUCH. IVE SEEN ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING. NOT GOING TO TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE. NOT EVEN MYSELF. I HATE THIS PLACE I HATE EVERYONE HERE. FULL OF CHEATERS. EVEN IN MY OWN WORLD, CANT FIND SOMEONE TO TRUST.

2009-08-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

woots.. now using com in my room again. thanks baby. love you.

2009-07-24T15:42:00.001+08:00

getting more and more frustrated everyday. 2 more hours before i off work. nothing seems right and i dunno wad next. im losting the direction in life and no idea how to carry on. i dunno where is the limit and wad should be done. and there's no defination of wad is correct and wad is wrong. maybe thats the reason why im so lost. im noe im gonna be blame to be unreasonable again. but i guess now lonely is the word to describe how i feel. people will start asking me, so wad is it i wan and wad has to be done in order for me to be satisfy? and there is no answer for it. i jus need someone to care and be there.

2009-07-22T08:19:00.002+08:00

To: Piggy,

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Piggy,
Happy Birthday to you.

Nothing much to say, jus wanna say happy birthday.

starting raining dunno when, jus noe that when my alarm ring, outside is raining heavily. thats the most sian part when you noe you have to leave your cosy bed and come to work. i getting so sick and tired of things happening. jus wanna treat myself better, make myself happier but it is jus so difficult. every single little thing will jus pop by and ruin my day. like i say, treasure wad ever you had, but if you really had enough, sometimes is good to let it go.

2009-07-20T11:37:00.002+08:00

updates updates. lifes really bad for me. things thats happening around me, really makes me wanna give up.

anyway, jus receive a postcard from jonna.. Thanks jonna, that is really very sweet of you. at least i still feel that there's someone somewhere that cares about me. =)

my supervisor jus got into an accident last last week. and now he is having one month mc. i guess this month at least i will feel better at work.

fall sick last week. tot is H1N1. lol.. starting from sorethroat, flu, fever and cough. everything came in a package. was on mc last mon. and got back to work on the next day. but has been coughing the whole week and no strenght to learn driving. been missing the lesson for one week. tomolo shall continue.

people, frens and anyone who read this. please, please appreciate wat you have and wat ppl is doing for you. cos they have already tried their very best to make things work and pls dun hurt them as they dun deserve that.

2009-06-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

shit. damn du lan today. he better dun give attitude and step on my tail.. arg.. dun wan to see his face. lol.. xx. jus venting some anger over here today. hope i can faster find a better job.

2009-06-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

my com jus die off ytd. and is beyond repair. omg. where to find another 1k to buy a new com on top of learning driving?? haix. meanwhile ppl who see this pls contact me via phone as i dun when i can came back online. pray hard my phone dun give me any problems at this time.

had a fun weekend last week. met up with a lot frensss.. =) all thanks to ah mok's birthday. stay over night at the chalet and drop dead on the next morning. lol. but its really fun to hang out like tat =))

got so much things i wan, but totally broke. dunno wad am i gonna do. without $$, cant do anything and cant say quit jiu quit. really stuck at no where. and when someone is sway, is really sway to the max. everything say spoil jiu spoil. omg.

how i wish $$ drop from sky. lol.. sound so ridiculous.. zzzz..x.x.

2009-06-09T21:53:00.003+08:00

today at work is damn busy. hardly catch a breath out of it. suddenly so many stupid issue pop ups. superb sianzzz..

went for my final theory trial test today. and i flunked it. zz. superb sian. everything is so bad today. damn suay day. fxxx up.. sry for the vulgur. cant stand my stupid life. everything is wrong. nothing's right.

after the test went to amk and buy some stuffs and headed home. cant find the thing i wan to buy. another stupid thing.

2009-06-08T22:39:00.008+08:00

little updates. been learning driving the past two weeks.. hope i can finish it asap.. before ssdc moved to woodlands.. well.. still got around 9months? shld be okay if i rush abit ba.. jia you =))

now still thinking if i shld quit? is it a good time to do so? can i find a better job? but now the job the location is good. every morning my dad will fetch me there. and if im learning driving, is damn near. walking distance. but if i quit, guess i can learn the driving faster. with more lesson in one week. but now, the most 2 to 3 lesson. cos not everyday i can leave so early. today damn stress. never ending problems. dunno why. opps! forgot to do one report today. tml morning have to go there and rush liao.. have to sleep liao. tomolo still gonna work.

hope everyone is doing fine =))

2009-05-11T16:03:00.002+08:00

off in lieu. been staying at home the whole day. a day for my to slack slack surf surf net, play play games. dun have to go to work and it feels so great. hw i wish got more off in lieu. but sad to say, didnt see any upcoming ph till august. yucks.

omg... i type half way and i fall asleep. wake up at around 5 plus and only manage to sleep at 4 plus.. shld be tried. but dunno why my body jus refuse to rest.. lol.. luckily i didnt sleep alot.. if not later is at night i will have a hard time falling asleep le..

feel like shit now. think i sprain my neck while sleeping. arrrggg.

2009-04-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

went over to bugis filmgarde to watch friday the 13th ytd. horrifying show.. kill and kill ppl.. x.x. bla.. first comment on the mall. freaking cold and each level is so far? lol.. take escalator also need to take very long. hahs.. then on the cinema.. piggy say it looks like great world.. but i haven been went over to great world before.. so i dunno. on a sat afternoon. is not very crowded.. reach there at 4.30 and bought a 6.30 show. the hall is basically empty.. lol.. but when we went is almost 3/8? not even half full.. okay.. on the cinema.. is it weird that we cant find any sign or signal to tell us if the hall is ready.. x.x. ask one of the concess staff and she ask us to ask the usher.. dot dot dot.. the usher must be very busy have to answer so many ppl.. lol..

2009-04-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my last day at work. and tuesday is my first day of work. so ironic. both days are working in the same place. ive not found wad i wan to do. so i guess i have to carry on with this stupid life. its not easy for a person to find or noe wad he or she wants. even deep inside the heart, jolly well noe wad is he or she wants, but the person is unable to make him or herself coming out with a decision. im such a corward. so afraid of making the wrong decision and getting myself regret. shit.

2009-04-06T21:14:00.002+08:00

had another experience on wad is life. life is full of unexpected things. nobody will noe wad will happen next. it might be the best of your life and it might be the worse of your life.

got a saying from my colleague today. always try then regret and not regret of not trying. sounds quite true ya? cos you will never noe will you even regret if you dun try..

had another bad sleep ytd.. keep on tossing around. from one end sleep till the other end. no choice but to leave my comfy bed in the morning to go to work. x.x

everything is confirm. sure of my decision. and why not try le then regret? hahas.. as time goes by, more and more unexpected things will come by. who noes where will i be at in the next few years? so jus treasure wad you have now.

i guess i can sleep in peace for quite sometime. heaven ar.. pls dun bother me with any other things. =X

2009-03-31T19:07:00.002+08:00

想太多 - 李玖哲 nice song =)

everything back to square one.. everything still not settle yet.. omgss.. im gonna have sleepless night today again. had a very bad slp ytd. dreamt of "XXXX" scolding me.. lol.. then all the colleagues say i work too hard liao.. sleep also can dreamt of work.. oh my godsss.. lol.. x.x

btw.. was planning to get a touch screen phone for myself.. but didnt how it is.. user friendly? bla bla bla.. gonna push it to maybe till end of april..

pray hard for a nice nice sleep today =X

2009-03-30T19:47:00.003+08:00

shity day. omg

today time past so fast. and it supppose to be a good thing. but it pass so fast is becos my mind is full of things.. x.x millions of questions and answer are passing through my head. suddenly i think that my head grown bigger sia. x.x dun wan to grow white hair so soon lehxx. lol..

today so many ppl was asking wad i wan.. seriously, i dunno wad i wan lehx.. jus wan everything to go smoothly.. but it jus dun seems to be the case.. more and more things need me to crack my brain and decide. and can say im not good at making decision.. even through i've jus gone though a course called "problem solving and decision making"!! apparently, it doesnt seems to work.. hahas.. it shld help me to solve my problem easier.. but how come the way i look at things become more and more complicated.. and why must they make thing so complicated.. arrrgg.. lol..

wanted to settle everything today once and for all .. but jus failed to do so.. lol.. gonna have a sleepless night today.. x.x.. i think i shld go more courses like communication skills bla bla bla.. lol.. jus now i was totally stunt man.. my mouth jus dun seems to open up and tok?? x.x dunno wad happen to me also.. suddenly everyone lookin at me waiting for an answer.. but pls, it is not something to decide immediately.. especially it doesnt drive with wad i initially expected!!?? but seriously, i hope that they can counter offer me.. cos no one will wan to wait aimlessly i guess..

gonna browse through the net later.. "tata"~~

2009-03-24T19:59:00.001+08:00

little updates~~
guess it has been months since my last update. o.O nothing much. everything is alright for me. well. thats something good =) cos jonna say i always bloggg about unhappy things.. hahas..

jus came back from a 2 days course at Kaplan. Problem solving and decision making.. can say everything went smoothly. after the first day course i even have the tot of going back to study. to be a student again.. hahahs.. kinda of missing sch days i guess. but humans are weird. when they are working, they wan to study.. when they are studying, they wan to work..

but then, having a 2 days course allow me to have a break from work and is a very good thing ya =)) and even the better thing is the course is quite interesting. allow me to slp later at home, ppl there are quite nice and i guess i did learn somethings there. everything is great =)) except the urge of wanting to go home but lesson jus dun ends. hahas..

hai.. tomolo will be going back to work.. enjoying one more holiday at work as my supervisor is not around.. hahas.. btw, my contract will be ending soon. less than a month. 13 april will be the last day of contract. wad will happen next? i dunno. so fast it has been a year. still can remember the first day i started work. o.O making frens with my colleagues.. complainings, gossips.. hahas.. got gd and bad things.. bla bla bla..

hahas.. it doesnt seems like little updates but like a conclusion of my past one year. x.x

2009-01-20T19:42:00.002+08:00

im so inmature. always do stupid things and get myself upset. i can never speak up my mind and make myself feel better. cos i noe it will only get worse.

if you are aware of a lie, will u chose to expose it or you will jus keep quiet? if u chose either way, will it helps? or it will jus worsen the suituation?

2009-01-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

gonna go back to work tomolo. superb sian! argg

2009-01-02T21:20:00.004+08:00

im addicted. it is not a good thing.

it is the only thing can help me. and im relying on it.

first of all, happy new year! a brand new year. but it seems to be very quiet to me. btw, im on a break from work since christmas till now. will be returning to work on the 5th of jan. and the feeling sucks.

alot of things have been torturing me and i have no idea of how to stop it. how i wish, dun exist.

2008-12-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

woots!! finally today ive done something meaningful to my room. wahahas.. finally made myself to clean up my room after so many nagging from my mum.. lol.. but it is for my own good.. ever since i graduate, all the school stuff have been hanging for like how long.. lol.. and today, i really throw alot of things. only keep some of it. lol.. but actually i didnt finish packing everything. only on the surface. lol.. things in the cardboard didnt really touch. cos today was too tired.. been cleaning the whole room since 2 to 7.. lol.. i must say, it is a tiring job. lol.

back to christmas. this time round. something different. cos the past 2 years of christmas, was working at cathay. lol.. so set off to town to celebrate christmas. had dinner at ps cafe. didnt really eat alot as im very full at that time. so cant really comment on the food. but the embrience of the place is quite nice. as usual. orchard road was pack with ppl and had a hard time walking. lol.. but we headed home after the dinner as everywhere is so crowded. i ended the christmas eve by passing a small present to my baby. =) hope he likes it.

everyone makes mistake. and they wish to be forgiven. so guys, if possible, forgive the person that had done wrong if you can. cos u will never noe, when is the time when you wan to forgive the person, yet you cant have any chance to do so.

2008-12-15T18:32:00.001+08:00

all i wish is some care and reason for me to smile.

2008-12-14T20:57:00.001+08:00

why do i always have to screw things up? i hate myself for doing so. my heart and my action jus dun tally. in fact, i dun understand why things always turn out this way. im sorry. please give me a reason to smile.

2008-11-30T20:07:00.003+08:00

okay.. im 20 le.. not young anymore.. lol.. hmmm.. had a very simple simple birthday. only celebrate with jonna.. hahah.. jonna must be feel honour.. hahahas.. lol.. hmmm.. shall refer to jonna's blog.. =)

on my birthday, after parted with jonna.. reached home.. had an surprise!! hee.. baby sent a bouqent of flowers and stuff toys.. hee.. so happy.. pleasant surprise.. =)

love my baby.

2008-11-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

well.. jus came across this. always be truthful to yourself and to the one you loved. if you really care for them, let them noe. dun always afraid to say and end up keeping everything within yourself.

anyway, the things that i mentioned last post. it was confirm. so ya. i will be free on this coming fri second half of the day 21 Nov 08, second half of the day on 27 Nov 08 and full day on 28 Nov 08. Gonna take this chance, and rest all i can.. hahahas. although im not left with alot of leave. haiz. gonna take unpaid leave soon. so my pay gonna drop around 10 to 20%?? omg.. thats alot sia.. x.X how arh.. take leave to rest is very happy. but pocket gonna not happy le. lol

2008-11-04T18:52:00.003+08:00

damn it. why im i experiencing this kind of thing at this age? whatever it is, have to find another way to it. if not, difficult to survive sia.. anyway everything is not firm yet. haiz..

2008-11-01T14:12:00.001+08:00

i guess. im only worth that much.

2008-10-29T22:07:00.004+08:00

now the market is like not doing every well. business everywhere is bad. gonna stop spending too much and start saving. well. been working for the past 7months. but didnt really see any money in my bank. so ya.. spend whatever i earn. not good.

dun understand. why last time earning few hundreds at cathay, i can survive. lol. trying to handle it. but dun understand why i always screw it up. can someone teach me not to screw things up? sometimes, i jus dunno how express myself. and always say something that are not meant to be heard.

different ppl have different ways of handling things. different interpretation. somethings, ppl see it as small matters, somethings, ppl see it as big matters. whichever ways, thats good and bad. always try clarify things. but it is always easy said than done.

2008-10-22T20:22:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wish that im inmune to everything. no feeling to anything. that's how you wun get any hurt. seriously, if you dun feel anything, nothing and no one can hurt you. ppl tends to do thing without realizing that they have hurt someone. said something that is like taking a knife and stab into someone's heart. always ask back yourself, how does things happen. before do anything, think. always dun expect anything. so that you wun feel disappointed.

well. i guess, inmune to everything will helps. although in this way, in ur life, you wun feel anything. no laughter, no happinness, no sadness. theres good and bad.

2008-10-18T01:08:00.004+08:00

hmmm.. 20plus more hours.. =)
10/18/08 1.08am

2008-10-08T21:53:00.003+08:00

have to admit this. i dunno how much i can endure. hate this life. hate everything. sometimes life is so miserable. im only 20 but im so tired. why huh? can someone tell me why??? i noe i cant get an answer.

anyway to release stress?? im really tired.mentally and physically tired. ive drain all my energy. and simply cant find any drive to do anything.

2008-09-25T20:28:00.002+08:00

random thoughts
coming to making decision. im always a failure. i didnt lose to anyone. the only person that ive lost to is myself. so silly of me. thinking of weird weird things. well..

2008-09-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

pray hard that my boss wun remember. hope nothing will happen. hai.. nothing to do but pray hard. cos i really dunno how to explain. how sia. PRAY* lol..

5more days. hee. piggy piggy~ love you.

2008-09-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

the happinest thing today is to receive my baby's msg =D

hope everything is alright for him =) 9.38pm

2008-09-13T20:13:00.002+08:00

13 September.

wake up in the morning at 8am. as my baby is going in army today le.. getting myself prepare everything and off we go..

well.. it is really an interesting experience to go there as is because got my baby so that i can go.. =)

gather at pasir ris at around 10.30am waiting for the bus to go there. and reach the ferry there at around 11am? due to some accident on the journey to there.

then we board the ferry, holding my baby's hand. =) it was acc with nice sea view.

finally, we reach tekong. enjoying nice sea breeze too. we parted our ways after reaching there for a while.. as he need to go and collect his things ba..

went over to see the place that he gonna stay in for the next 3 months. quite a nice place. but if is going there for holiday then will be great.. hee..

so lalalala.. watch some videos at the auditorium. then ate the food over there with baby and baby's family.

that ended the trip there. will be seeing my baby in 2 weeks time. is only the first day and ive started missing him so much.

2008-09-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

im so afraid that im not the one.

2008-09-07T14:35:00.004+08:00

SAVED TO DRAFT. (HIDDEN POST)

2008-09-06T21:05:00.004+08:00

BORED!
im such a bored person. everyday is so bored. work, sleep, work, sleep. nothing better to do. had been watching sakura for past 4 hours. my life is so bored. well. the sakura that i had can last me for 16 hours. so boring.

raining heavily now. well. nothing much to say.

i totally got no mood to do anything. everyday is like so.. nothing to say..

been wanting to find someone to tok to. someone who will really listen to me. noe how i feel. but i guess the one person is myself. lol. although toking to myself sounds a bit insane. but dun you ppl agree that you yourself are the one who understand urself the most? knowing wad the hell you yourself are thinking and will never betray yourself. will never do anything to hurt yourself. will be the only one who will try your best and bring everything good for yourself? cos human beings are selfish. they will always think of themselves first before other. and i dun deny that.

will there be anyone who will sacrifice yourself for others or for the one you love? yes, there is. but usually, wad will the person get back in the end? nothing. ppl will definetly say that they wun wan anything in return. i dunno. but who noes when i really met this kind of person, it might change my thinkin.

there's once saying, been loved is usually better than to love someone. cos when your love someone, you will definetly suffer. in a relationship, there's nothing like equally love each other. one of it will definetly love the other more.

this thinking, it jus came out of the blue. it means nothing.

2008-09-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

missing you is a daliy thing i will do. =)

1 and a half more week. 13 Sep.

shld i hang on to it? or shld i quit? im so so tired. jus wanna rest. but i will be bored and broke. which now has a monthly income, dun wish to break it. but after 1 year if not going to renew the contract, i might need to find another job again. all my colleague is saying that they will quit end of the year after the bonus.. blah blah blah.. so.. i dunno. must work until 1 year before i can get any bonus. cos im contract staff.. haiz..

so ya.. shld i endure? for time being, yes ba.. unless got ppl step on my tail.. lol.. hahas..

2008-08-25T08:18:00.002+08:00

damn it.

i shldnt have come to work today. freaking irritated with the lights above my head. keep on flicking. omg. have to bear with it the whole day. and im having bad headache. painful sorethroat. so irritating. my mood is completely down with those things flashing through my mind. how shld i carry on with it?

2008-08-24T19:02:00.001+08:00

i dunno how shld i carry on.

2008-08-21T22:38:00.003+08:00

Random thoughts
jus happen to have this thought. if i live until 60 years old. ive reach one third of my life. but im still nowhere. a failure. achieve nothing. own nothing. when time pass by. everything is nothing at all.

2008-08-17T23:43:00.003+08:00

lol.. this jonna arh.. hahas.. i only one week never blog she say i mia..lol.. then ur sentence at ur blog very good sia.. scare ppl dunno im niao.. =XX lol.. hahahs... btw.. hor hor.. every week go out with CJX.. lol.. wahahas.. later ri ju shen qing liao.. whahahas..

this week was kinda of mia la.. everyday jus work home work home work.. only mon met up with fy kai ken and piggy.. went to serangoon garden and had dinner.. then chill at coffee bean tok tok.. then tue start the stupid work again. lol..

weekend will be with piggy.. lol.. he so good.. no need work liao.. no need wake up early early.. hahahs..lol.. but kinda sian ba? hmmm.. but he must go train train.. cos going army liao.. hmmm..

tomolo is another working day. so sian.. falling sick soon soon.. really sick. lol.

off-in-lieu

2008-08-10T22:06:00.005+08:00

Off-Day =)
omg.. tomolo i dun have to go to work!! yes..
lol.. off-in-lieu for all non shift employees.. so ya.. long weekend to rest.. woots..
thanks to national day.

okie. coming to the 4th month of my work. so sian. getting more and more stress. more and more responsiblity. so dot dot dot. my supervisor went for a 3 weeks reservist. so ya.. his not around got good and bad. got more freedom but always got stupid stupid things happen. so sian.

ytd was national day. so fast. another national day. i still can remember clearly on last year national day. jus a few days away. and when that time, i wun noe wad i will be doing now. last year national day. working at cathay. this year national day. watching movie at cathay. so much diff. last year. im still studying. this year. im working full time. everything change so much. and who noes wad will happen next year. hope for the best.

hmmm.. so ytd wake up at 8 plus.. intend to go to the bank. but all branches are closed. due to national day. lol. so me and piggy went to queentown and have laksa. the standard drop again. =X then he went to do his spec for army. 1 month plus piggy going in le. =X so ya.. will treasure my time with him =)

then went to sim lim.. piggy wan to buy hardisk. lalalals.. price diff everywhere. and he chose the best price. heex.

and back to tc. watch the mummy. so not mummy. lol.. mummy 1 still better.

then headed back. sleep. lol. dunno tml should sleep till wad time. still have to go bank in the morning. =X

2008-08-06T22:42:00.001+08:00

underconstruction. =)

2008-07-27T21:43:00.003+08:00

你没想像中爱我 - 《一切完美》片尾曲
词：石欣卉曲：So Million 制作：曾偉祺演唱：石欣卉
你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口
啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜~~~你没想像中爱我

2008-07-22T22:41:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday to my BABY!!! =)

Jus got back from the date with my baby. =) and of cos, today is my baby's birthday! =D So we set off out date by going to queentown to had laska and curry chicken. which we wanted to go eat for a long long time.. there de laska really very nice but today dunno why the standard a bit drop.. lol. then we took bus to cathay to watch movie!! the dark knight. a 2 hrs 40mins show.. woots.. almost fall asleep in the beginning but when it gets to the exicting part.. woots.. confirm awake sia.. hahahas... so we catch the show at 5.25pm.. when it finish is already 8pm.. dot dot dot..

then we went to grab something to eat.. sakae sushi.. nice nice.. then baby took cabby and sent me home.. lalalals.. weird charges on the cab.. go by CTE charge 3bucks?? lalalalas..

brought a small cake for baby and celebrate with him in the midnight =D